Narcissist Truths

When I read a post that confirms my suspicions ...I have to share in hopes it will make the light come on for other victims and or survivors still needing confirmations to alleviate some of the guilt, and self esteem issues they suffer thinking it was them...and not understanding fully the craziness of Narcissism and the narcissist.  Here in  just one big sentence they realize and can SEE another
truth....vs the illusion....the veil the narcissist wears... but sometimes their excitement in achievement gives them away once you go back and relive the situation(s).

  This is SO the truth and it feels so good to KNOW that someone else has also had the same
 experience and has shared it to help someone like me.  I even can look back and see how certain things were "set up" how it was achieved and the innocent participants...along with the look of satisfaction on the perpetrators face as she realized "success"  and that portion of her play had just had a standing ovation of success.  When these "episodes" would happen with me and I looked in her direction, my intuition was screaming  DANGER.   A look only a victim would be able to go back and realize ......

I feel so sorry for the participants....because they are still in the dark and have yet to "wake up" to some embarrassing realizations.   And...there is nothing I can say, or can do, that would make sense to them ....  for them to realize the truth.  Why?  Because it is craziness.  CRAZINESS.

Intuitive Shorthand

For the past few years I have been doing what I refer to as "Intuitive shorthand. "   I use it with photographs I take, art pieces I create, and to help me go inside...instead of using my mind.

The pre requisites are:

A meditative State.

A journal

A quiet spot where you won't be disturbed

Soft music with no words to distract

Low lighting

I burn some Paulo Santo *holy wood

Clear my mind of any thoughts 

Close my eyes

Get comfortable

Begin

I then begin listening for words or a phrase to  come through.  I don't hurry the process.

When the words don't come any more I end my session.

After I write a word or a short phrase, i close my eyes again until the next word emerges, etc. till done.

After the session. or maybe a few days later I take the listing of words I have written in the order they were written 

 and as QUICKLY  as possible ; with no mindful thoughts,  I create an intuitive recall.  The most important aspect is to write as quickly as possible adding connecting words as they come forth.

I have also created using photos..... One year it was a photo book of photos I had taken of Mt. Shasta area with words that came in meditation while I was at The Meadow.

You might take an art piece you have created and do the words and then the recall....  What comes forth is deeper than the surface and exciting.

HERE ARE MY WORDS AND THE RECALLL CONNECTED TO THE PICTURE I POSTED.

NATURE 

PRICKLY

SEEDS

GREEN

NEW

DYING TO REBIRTH

STIFF SOFT

SMOOTH

BEAUTIFUL

ONENESS

WONDER

ERECT

NURTURING

MOTHER NATURE

UNDERSTANDING NEEDS

PROVIDES

AN END IS A BEGINNING AND A BEGINNING ENDS.

Hats

I am working on some crocheted hats for my daughter and son in laws'  store.  The woven material is sari silk material on the left and a silk texture type yarn on the other.   They are quick and easy....a nice break for a few days before I go back to my clay on canvas pieces that are waiting on my table in my studio.  Speaking of which...stay tuned for the most recent piece...found the perfect size shadow box .... anxious to get things secured together and see if it is "done" or if I still have work to do on it.

Clay/Canvas Wall Hanging

10.14.19  

THIS IS WHERE I AM NOW.  ANOTHER CANVAS BOARD THAT I MESSED UP WITH THE PAINT AND THEN SIFTED FINE BLACK GRITTED SAND ON TOP OF THE WET PAINT.  YOU CAN SEE FAINT SHADOWY CASTS OF COLORS BENEATH THE SAND.  THEN I CUT SOME COPPER WIRE MESH AND ADDED 3 STRIPS.  I DON'T LIKE THE MAT....BUT THIS ISN'T FINISHED YET SO IT MAY BE AND UNMATTED PIECE OR SOMETHING I HAVEN'T EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT....INTUITION IS CRAZY SOMETIMES.  STAY TUNED FOR THE NEXT PHASE OF THIS PUZZLE.  PUZZLE....MAYBE I NEED TO WORK IN SOME PUZZLE PIECES.

THI

Sands of the Nile
Sifting Sands
The Sands of Time



I HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WAS GOING WITH THIS PIECE.  I  TOOK A BALL OF CLAY AND BEGAN MOVING IT AROUND A SMALL CANVAS BOARD.   BAKED IT AND JUST BEGAIN WORKING ON IT.

IT IS NOT DONE YET.

I WILL ADD PHOTOS AS I PROGRESS.

I LIKE THE TEXTURE I GOT INTO THIS PIECE USING BLACK SAND THAT I PICKED UP AT DOLLAR TREE...A NEAT PLACE FOR OUT OF THE BOX ARTISTS.

Intuitive Art ..... Wall Hanging Canvas, Clay and Rubber Stamps

I love the colors of Nature.  I think I also used gold    foil on this small piece.